oh..life is meaningless...i'm totally depressed...music motivated me to live on...
will going to church help me?....i'll try to sneak out and go to church to sort of confess and make myself feel better....then mayb i can make more friends also.....no one really cares about me...once again..nvm...i just feel terrible now....and i jus don't feel like doing anything except 4 reading and blogging and mayb drawing....got so much hw....stupid chinese, science and geog ... all i can remember and i don't feel like doing them at all.....but i somehow feel anxious 4 not completing my homework when sch start ... then all the teachers will get angry with me and scold me then i will feel hoorrible....i got so much things to do lor....still have to practice piano...i would have quitted piano if not for the nice piano teacher who is very patient....ya...i'm bored...and i'm stuck in myself and my commotion/emotion-less ...ok...i'm talking crap..shut up .. ok....i'll conclude...my life is not so good as it should be....and no 1 can force me to do anything..i know i should not fuss over small useless stuffs but......nvm......y is this entry so long?...i dunno...jus please read on.....i have been feeling terrible all day and wasted half of the day doing nothing...quarrelling with mum and also with my dad over the phone...then mom went out.... i got hungry so i ordered pizza with my savings then watched scooby doo on dvd...it's funny and ... very nice....sarah michelle gellar is gorgeous...but i think jennifer love hewitt is prettier then her......
few days ago just had math and science test i thinnk i sure flunked them...cos they are so diffcult + not enough time to finish...i should hav revised more...nvm the past is the past....just like i can't go back to 2005, the bittersweet moments of my life...2006 is another year..either a more challenging and exciting or a more blase 1....few weeks ago my class just learned about the pendulum thing...(during the test i think i forgot everything 'bout it)...then it's like the science teacher keep saying..'....the cork...' the every1 laugh...i c them laugh then i also laugh...x)
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now i hav to get myself prepares for tmr..i hav to get more organised and learn to control my feelings....i will not get angry so easily and not bother to reason with unreasonable ppl.....i'm going to draw now...a picture of a girl selling feathers suddenly appeared in my mind...i might post that pic on this blog after completing it....thats all....